Dirt….

May 20, 2009

there is nothing quite like its healing properties. 

I finally have been able to get my fingers dirty again!  My aching knees can prove it!  Six weeks is a long time to be away from a garden as it transitions from winter to spring; from under snow to the tulips are blown.  I missed seeing their colors, but there are lots of other perennials out there just waiting to pop.  And passing by the nursery…there are lots of annuals in need of a good home!  😀

I’ve spent the six weeks transitioning too; transitioning our fourth parent with ALZ into better care.  Independence is no longer a viable option.  What this disease does is heart wrenching and unstoppable.  But it is a reality of life and so must be faced and dealt with as best one can.

That was last week, this is today.  Today, I will go out and get dirty pulling weeds, moving plants, listening to the birds sing.  My partner will be munching on the rocks I uncover, finding them to be her own special treasure.  Today, I’ll be in my favorite spot, in the garden, walking and talking with God.  I’ll be on my knees and while there, I will be praying for you.

YEAH!

To My Peeps ~  I love you!

 

Why I am planted in your garden!!!  Come and join me on the rabbit trail as I tell you…

 

Long, long ago in a far and distant land….   I began my quest to find where I came from in order to understand why I was the way I was.  I desired the ability to see ‘me’ in my very young kids.  Yup – genetics are at work – Ken and the skateboard proved that!  Anyway, here goes a long and convoluted story of Wife, Mom, Sis, Aunt T, J and Friend.

 

Ten years before questing I was a young mom with one infant. At that time life was more than chaotic and stressful, I was downright “in over my head”.  I knew I needed to find something different because where I was wasn’t good.  I needed to find peace in my life, my relationships and my soul – I just didn’t know exactly where to begin. 

 

I talked with Ron’s sister about it.  She invited me to a Bible Study where I was reintroduced to Christ.  A Campus Crusades for Christ girl had witnessed to me as a pre-teen — “You know you’re a sinner?” “Yes” (Head hung, shameful.  An hour earlier I had punched my cousin in the nose, hard.  I could not figure out HOW she knew!!)  “Would you like to pray and ask Christ’s forgiveness?” she questions.  “YES!”  Exactly what I needed!

 

But that is as far as it went.  I knew not what to do after that and didn’t for many years.  Throughout my life I had never had a doubt that Jesus loved me – just like the song promised.  I relished the comfort of that; unfortunately I wasn’t aware I had a responsibility in the relationship.  Looking back I can see God was taking me through a process, one step at a time, willingly revealing Himself more each time I asked.  But, I was kind of an independent sort (ya think?!?), so I didn’t ask very often.

 

Back to the bible study….   One day our teacher said, “If you were to jump up and turn around right now….it would not surprise God.”  Wow!  Something I had never dwelt on before, intimate knowledge of being known.  Weeks later he asks us to consider the verse from Mark 8:29, “But what about you?  Who do you say I am?”  That week I came face-to-face with the question of what I was doing with Christ personally.   I not only needed Him as Savior, I needed Him as Lord.  I came to Peter’s response: “Lord, to whom shall we go?  You have the words of eternal life.  We believe and know that you are the Holy One of God.”  John 6:68 – the place we were studying. 

 

Yup…that’s how Jon got his name.  And that is where a dynamic life change started.

 

Back to the search….  In the year before I began looking for my peeps I read, I sought guidance from many, and I prayed and prayed.  God lead me to Joseph in the Bible.  He was separated from his family and through reconciliation they found God’s provisions, God meant it for good!!!  My pastor at the time confirmed that there was a Biblical precedent for looking.  Moses, an adopted grandchild of the King of Egypt, became burdened to find those of his blood.  God used it for good, for salvation of the entire nation of Israel.

 

Oh, am I ever thankful for my entire family!!!  Each and every one of you are a blessing and joy to me.  I cannot begin to tell you how much.  You are an awesome answer to prayer. There are wondrous miracles and overwhelming sorrows we have experienced together and separately, and I know God is working them together for good.  What a treasure we have in one another.  I know God planned my life to be replanted among you for His good purposes!

 

As I’ve grown, prayed and studied, there is another profound thing I want to share with you.  I am wholly and utterly convinced we are imminently close to Christ’s midnight call for His church, in fact, most probably the “tarrying” days as God adds grace upon grace.  God wants our attention!  NOW—today, exactly where we are.  My plea is that we will quicken to His call and seek Him with all our hearts. 

 

I love you to the moon!  God loves you beyond the galaxies!!!

 

t

 

(This was originally posted on my facebook page.)